********************A year or two back my New Year's resolution was not to make any more New Year's resolutions for the very reason that Mr. Twain spoke of and it's the only one that I've ever managed to keep! Resolutions are a grand idea in theory but how many of us really keep them much past the end of January - if we even make it that long? Besides, if something is that big of a problem that we need to make a resolution to correct it then why wait until the beginning of a new year to do it? Why not do it as soon as we realize that it's a problem?
Not making resolutions is tricky business, especially to those of us who are anally retentive nit-picky Virgos who just love to make lists! Do you have any idea how hard it is to keep from sitting down with pen and paper and start listing those things in my life that I would like to see change in one form or another? It's almost as hard as it is to keep from going into the kitchen and liberating the ice cream trapped in its box in the freezer that constantly calls my name disrupting Ugly Betty or Grey's Anatomy! Some things in life are just more difficult than others!
That said, even though I don't "consciously" make any resolutions there are some that I kick around in my head and mentally debate over each year. There's the standard "need to go on a diet and exercise more" resolution which is beat to death every single year by just about every single person out there; there's the "get my finances in some sort of acceptable order" resolution that I've attempted numerous times to (sadly) no avail; and there's the "stop procrastinating and get stuff done" resolution that I will eventually get to but not right now.
Still ... it's hard not to want to resolve a thing or two when you're standing there looking at twelve brand-new months chock-full of potential and promise. Who amongst us doesn't think about how much better this next year is going to be when we're hanging up that new calendar on the wall? Who doesn't hope for bigger and better things? For prayers answered? Wishes fulfilled? Desires brought to fruition? I'm not much of an optimist (in my mind the glass always seems to be half-empty because why wouldn't you fill it all the way up to begin with?) but even I can't help but look at the beginning of a new year without the hope that it holds some really good things. But of course those things aren't just going to come knocking on my door without a little participation on my part.
So in my attempt to make 2007 a better year than the one that just passed I'm going to attempt a few things - not resolve, mind you, but attempt! First off, I am going to attempt to a be a better friend to those people who have honored me by calling me their friend. I don't have a large circle of friends because I'm one of those people who might be considered hard to get close to but to those who have taken the time to get to know me and put up with me I thank you for friendship and I will try to be more worthy of the honor.
I will definitely attempt to keep in better touch with my former-grandmother-in-law out in California who still calls me her granddaughter even though her grandson and I divorced well over twenty years ago. Grandma Edith is one of the warmest, most genuine people there is and if I'm getting older so is she, which means I don't have all the time in the world to write her that letter I owe her or make that phone call I've been thinking about. This is an important one as time waits for no man or woman and if my life is too busy to keep in touch with the people that I love and who love me, then there's something wrong somewhere.
Finally, the last thing I'm going to attempt is to learn a little more patience. I've gotten a little better at it each year but it's a slow process and trying to have patience learning patience is not easy! Talk about your classic rock and a hard place! I need more patience with my daughter who moves at the pace of a turtle sometimes and who still insists on putting everything on the floor; I need more patience with my co-workers who work in the same "Ivory Tower of Stress" that I do and breathe the same stale air that I do; and I need more patience with myself because even though I'm getting closer and closer to 50 every day I'm still a work in progress and probably always will be.
Sounds simple enough, doesn't it? I'll try to remember to post on this again and let you know how I'm doing! In the meantime, good luck to those of you who have resolved to attempt some change in your own lives this year - hopefully we won't all end up doing a little road construction before the year is out!