The party's over.
In less than an hour I need to be at the train station to pick up Amanda who arrives home from New Jersey tonight. It's been one heck of a quick week and, even though I've missed her, I've rather enjoyed having time to myself and I think it's going to be take a little getting used to having someone else in the house again. I'm not so sure that I'd make a good hermit but I do rather like to have time alone so don't mind sharing company with just me, myself, and I from time to time. I hope that doesn't make me a bad mother!
Once I get back from the train station, I'm planning on making it an early night to bed as I stayed up way too late last night watching "Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason" simply because I have trouble turning off a movie with Colin Firth in it. Especially one with a happy ending as, incurable romantic that I am, I do love a happy ending. It was worth missing an hour or so of sleep to see Bridget and Mark resolve their problems! However, I now need to try to find that hour or so of missing sleep!
Speaking of resolving problems, I have a question to toss out to my readers that perhaps you can answer for me over the course of the next day or two. I will be working one of my long 16 -hour Monday shifts tomorrow so won't be getting back to the Blogosphere until probably sometime on Tuesday so there's plenty of time for people to weigh in with their thoughts and/or suggestions if they so choose. Here's my dilemma -
As regular readers know, I will be taking a mini-vacation of sorts to California in less than two weeks. I'll be going to the town where I used to live to see my best friend, my former grandmother-in-law, and to meet some new blogging buddies who live near the area all while eating copious amounts of Mexican food! I think it's going to be a wonderful time but there's one more thing that I'm just not sure whether I will get the chance to do or should do.
There is one other person I'd really like to see if at all possible but I'm just not sure if it is possible. This person is one of the ghosts from my past and I've not spoken to him in quite a long time though he is often in my heart and on my mind. Because I still care about him, and most certainly always will, I'd like to know how he's doing, whether life has been good to him, if he's happy, whether he accomplished any of the hopes and dreams he told me about the last time we spoke,and if by any chance he ever thinks about me at all. I don't want to intrude on his life but I really want to see him again. By the same token, I don't take rejection all that well and so am hesitant in getting in touch with him to see if he'd like to touch base while I'm all the way over on his side of the country. I fear being told that he would rather not have my face darken his visage ever again but I am also afraid that I may never get the chance to see him again if I don't do it while I'm there.
Between a rock and a hard place. That's where I am.
What do you think? Should I take the chance of being rejected or should I not take the risk and just come home knowing that I never had the courage to follow through with something that my heart really wants to do? What would you do if you were in my place? Would you be willing to take the risk?