Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Feeling Like The Bug

Mark Knopfler of Dire Straits fame wrote a song quite a few years back called "The Bug" wherein he sings the lyrics - "Sometimes you're the windshield, sometimes you're the bug". 

Well, to be honest, I'm really starting to feel like the bug here lately and I'm at that stage of the game where all a person has to do is look at me funny and I'll start to cry.  Right now I am totally stressed out about so many different things on so many different levels that I'm not even sure which thing it is that has me waking up at 3:00 in the morning and unable to get back to sleep or which thing is putting the knot in the middle of my back right between my shoulder blades or what might be causing the headaches and the constant clenching of my jaw.  I'm not sure why I read other people's blog posts and get all sniffly and weepy or why I just want to go crawl under a rock afterward but right now I do and I'm thinking that's really not a good thing.

So, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go break out the pointed hats, the streamers, the balloons, and the other trappings of any good full-blown Pity Party and have one for myself for a little while.  Hopefully when I come back I'll feel human again or at least a little less like I've been splatted onto one windshield after another in bumper-to-bumper traffic.


  1. Aw honey I'm sorry you feel like this. Maybe it's hormonal? I know from experience how hormones can make you feel like that. I'll send you some Reiki and a big ((HUG)) x

  2. It's the dog days of summer, I'll bet. It'll suck the life out of you.

    Whatever it is, go ahead and have a good cry. Sometimes it's the only thing to do!

    Big hugs xo

  3. this damn heat sure doesn't help

    I get it, trust me - I get it
    and I don't know how to fix it, I only know how to ride it out

    I try to remember how lucky I really am compared to so many

    and I take lots of deep breaths and work to stay in the moment

    hugs Linda

  4. Anonymous10:09 AM EDT

    awww--Linda I'm sorry you are feeling this way.

    I know that I've been feeling a little on edge, okay a lot, because of this darned heat. I am so ticked of at the weatherman that I flipped him the bird last night and my kids were sitting right next to me!!

    I hope you take it easy today and feel more cheerful really soon :)

  5. sounds like menopause to me. i felt that way for several years! yikes! hope you feel better soon honey, i know you feel like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders. it will pass. i promise.

    hugs, bee

  6. Anonymous11:14 AM EDT

    Oh lord, you feel like I felt the other night when I just bawled my eyes out.

    I can suggest that if you are having some stress, go see someone about it.

    I seriously think this is something he/she can help you through. Honest.

  7. What Empress Bee said. That was my first thought Linda. You might want to check into that. There are things than can help you get through this life adjustment. Worth a look see.

    Super big hug and I hope you feel better soon. :)

  8. There is a lot going on right now. Both your daughters graduated high school and in a matter of months Amanda will be leaving for college. You just got home from a vacation. The heat has been horrendous. With all of that, it's no wonder you are under so much stress and so emotional.

  9. It's a good analogy, like being the fly that's just been swatted by a newspaper.

  10. I don't think I have ever met anyone who remembers the actual names of Dire Staits. A child of the 80s you must be. Here in Australia we are taught in school the song was written by Mary Chapin Carpenter (she endowed out little parish school, but that would be a comment for a different post.)

    Please don't be pitiful, Miss Linda. You're not the bug. Or the ball or the nail. Or the shopping basket front wheel that wobbles. (Mark left that verse out at the last minute.) So take heart. I admit I have led a relatively sheltered life and have no real inkling of what Empress Bee or Sandee are talking about, but, frankly, I don't think it is possible to make a hor mone. It must be something else.

  11. After two high school graduations, you're due a little rest and reflection. Take care.

  12. I'm hoping you are feeling better.

  13. You need some real rest and "Me Time". Other than that, I'm on a kick to get all my friends on to either Pilates or Yoga. It's amazing how good you feel once you learn to breath. (and you thought that came naturally when the doc spanked you ... HA!!!)

  14. How about going 3 weeks WITHOUT working overtime!

    that might be a good start.

  15. Funny because I just bought hubman anther Mark Knopfler CD.
    ~~~I'm way past the magic moment when our lives change dramatically, but you could be peri-menopausal. I was in my forties and had a lot of the same stuff going on. I've told you a whole bunch of times I don't know how you manage your schedule. Even when I was younger there's no way I could keep up with you!
    Believe it or not, I read somewhere that tears contain a chemical that is good for us!

  16. Oh no, I just read this Duchess Linda. I'm sorry. I do know how you feel. I hope you're better today (Friday).

    Nothing like a good cry. I don't have those too often but they are good.

    The dang heat and humidity can do it to you, and so can that change-of-life thingy the others mentioned.
    And that fact both of your daughters just passed major milestones with their graduations within a few days of each other. You need a break!

  17. Been there, done that and yup, it's no fun at all:-( Once you start to feeling that way, it's so hard to get out of it but we always manage to do so, so don't give up hope!! Going to see your doctor and getting some help would be the first step. As you say, the heat doesn't help at all, especially when you feel like everything is sitting heavily on your shoulders. Just know that you're not alone and we're all here for you if you need to talk. Big hugs. xoxox

  18. Linda,

    Sorry that you're feeling down. If it's hitting you as hard as it seems, you may want to talk it over with a professional. Even if it is hormonal, getting an opinion is worth it. No need to struggle and feel awful. Lots of (((HUGS))) headed your way.


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